After a recording session of podcasting which usually involves an instagram live and youtube live, I am well and truly buzzed.
Welcoming someone I’m interviewing or inviting as a guest co-host, giving them a run through, finalising my setup I began hours before 11:30am (on a Friday), to finally pressing LIVE on all tech (including video), and then getting through a whole 30-50 mins of an unscripted conversation whilst doing my best to steer it in a direction that provides clear and insightful commentary means … well … I’m way more than buzzed. In fact I am exhausted! Once I bid farewell to IG/YT and thank my guest, I am in that weird hyped state where I just want to keep going but I know I need to do the opposite. Unplug, disconnect, tune-out, whatever you want to call it.
Lately I’ve learnt to stop and take stock - especially if I have another recording session (like an interview) scheduled in the afternoon - which often happens. So I’ll do an additional story on my IG to thank everyone for tuning-in and showing support (love you guys) and tag my guest so that viewers/listeners feel free to continue the conversation with them if they so wish.
In my recent LIVE, one of my gorgeous IG people described me as an introverted extrovert. I definitely won’t disagree with him. Whilst I’m comfortable and at ease being camera and microphone facing, I immediately relish retreating into my shell to reflect and recharge. Often I will stay indoors alone for at least 24 hours or more after a day of recording. Even if it’s gorgeous sunny weather as it has been recently in London.
I used to resist the desire to retreat at first. Retreating felt like I was defeating my creative hustle. Almost like I was cheating myself out of continued flow. But I’ve learnt that feeling HYPED is not flow. For me to get into the next creative zone of listening back, mixing sound, editing and cutting video, and creating visuals for youtube and socials, I need to be less hyped and more calm. Flow for me is CALM. I wonder if this is the case for everyone?
So to get some calm after I begin to go from FLOW to a HYPER state I’ll literally throw my clothes off, tie my hair on top of my head, and jump into bed with my MacBook and a large bottle of water. For the next 3-6 hours I will FLOW from watching some YT content or something on netflix, to napping, to cooking some food to eat in bed (nothing smelly or messy), to crawling onto my floor and finding my yoga mat to do a lil yoga workout (I call it my ‘prison workout’).
Whilst being social, public facing, and essentially ‘performing’ is definitely me in my element, equally getting quiet in solitude is also my element. I’m not so sure if this is about being a personality type and more just a case of healthy creativity. Rather than being in OUTPUT mode all the time - which I don’t find being healthy short term or long term especially since it requires a fair amount of stimuli to keep going like that - I’d rather ride the wave (here comes the surfing analogy) and then jump off when it breaks and take a moment to observe it retreating before I head out there again. So that’s not just me retreating, but observing my flow retreating as well. I think this is important. Just to feel more agency and control over it.
Restoring and refocusing is something that isn’t made popular. And many don’t allow themselves to restore and refocus. I use to be THAT person always out and active and I'd barely give myself time to just go inward for the equivalent time I’d be outward. FOMO plays a big part - especially with everyone’s IG stories at our fingertips. But worse than FOMO is actually missing out … on ourselves.